Such mixed emotions this evening…. So sad for the devastation in Newtown CT – unfathomable grief….

“What kind of person takes the lives of 20 little children…?” Brian Williams

So, so, so sad….

Maybe that is the sadness I feel…

And elation over another success in my journey. I published and am doing a FREE WEEKEND DOWNLOAD on my latest book – Whose Bed Have Your Boots Been Under! See the page on my blog for more info.

And maybe I’m feeling sad because I can’t wrap my head around the holidays this year… I keep making an attempt, but all I feel is sad. Maybe it’s because Christmas was my mom’s birthday and some years it hurts more, and I miss her more than others… She would have been 72 this year and I miss being able to share that with her.

Maybe it’s because I’m not done Christmas shopping and I am having a hard time thinking about any of it…

Maybe it’s the moon….  maybe I just don’t know, but I feel like I’m on a roller coaster this week and I’m not feeling the WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!

And maybe… it will pass…. soon….

Maybe I’ll write more later 🙂

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Love, Barbara




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2 thoughts on “Maybe…

  1. Sue Bevins says:

    Barb it is not only you that has that sad feeling. It is so so sad and like you said it is hard to get into the spirit of Christmas this year. I don’t know if it is because I have been sick or what. Like you said some years are harder than others. All we can do is say a prayer for all that are hurting this year. Love you girl

  2. jmac says:

    I think we are all a little “lost” today… the grief has overwhelmed me. Think of your mom though and smile at the long life she had with her wonderful family. I’m sure she is smiling at you my friend and watching over all of the children who passed today.

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