I posted a while back that I was having growing pains and sometimes it really makes me question myself. But my internal conscience tells me – It’s ok. It’s time. Move forward.
So with that said… I want to remind you that THIS BOOK – Lulu’s Loves – won’t be what has been typical Barbara. I know some of you will appreciate my work, but some won’t. I have to accept that this one – while it has no “throbbing manhood,” (a joke from last evening…) it won’t be AS suggestive as in the past.
It WILL have more sex – although most of the scenes it will be LOVEMAKING. I believe there’s a difference. I won’t make that far of a leap from my comfort zone because I respect my husband, and my family. It won’t be trashy. It will be “graceful and stylish.” I kept it clean, but this is a woman going through her life doing what young women do/did in their twenties….. and some have already said they won’t like it. So I’m telling you upfront that this will be MORE. It will be sexier, but it has a beautiful story.
I just want you to know this. I don’t believe that anyone who knows/loves me will be embarrassed – maybe a BLUSH here and there – but read for the story.
I know that a HUGE part of me feeling the need to tell you this is because it’s so different FOR ME. Most of the BETA readers said leave it alone – so I did. This is me growing as a writer. This is me testing the waters. This is me sharing a story that my head and my heart told me to write. (PS – Gene supports me on this…)
I woke up and decided that they lie! They all lie!!!!
They say – “fall back an hour and you will get an extra hour’s sleep…” LIES I TELL YOU!
So here I am… getting ready to hit send on the document called Lulu’s Loves. The anxious nerves. The “Oh, this isn’t anything you’ve read from me before nerves. The “Ok, the BETA readers like it (most said LOVE) and they say – “GO WITH IT – YOU’RE READY FOR THIS” nerves…
So as I sit here bouncing my legs anxiously thinking about Lulu I want to add full disclosure…
This one won’t be suggestive.
This one isn’t PG 18 as the others have been – this one will be more edgy and I want YOU to know that. I’ve thought about it and gone back and forth and back and forth again.
The bottom line is that this is Lulu’s story. It’s what came to me and I’m sending it on like it is. My hesitation is that some of my readers are my mom’s age, so I thought about my mom. Would she read it and be ok with where Lulu’s journey takes her. And my heart said yes. She might cringe a time or two but she’d realize that it’s part of the story – Lulu’s story.
Gene’s read some of it and he says send it. “You have to step out of your safe zone. You have to reach all romance readers in order to grow.”
Get ready for Lulu’s Loves – The next novel from Barbara S. Stewart A PG 29ish romance…
Lulu makes me happy – I’ll have a release date and a cover to share soon.