words that will remind me….

I said a while back that I wasn’t going to post here every day – only when I had something important to say… Today I do….

A very special friend shared this with me in a private message, but as I read it for the fourth time I decided that I NEEDED TO SHARE IT. Thank you, Jeff, for always sharing things that motivate me, things that make me stop and think… Things that make me go, ‘Hmmmmm”. 

This is too beautiful to sit in my INBOX…

“There is a vitality, a life force, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and there is only one of you in all time. This expression is unique, and if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium; and be lost. The world will not have it.

It is not your business to determine how good it is, not how it compares with other expression. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open. You have to keep open and aware directly to the urges that motivate you. Keep the channel open.

No artist is pleased. There is no satisfaction whatever at any time. There is only a queer, divine dissatisfaction, a blessed unrest that keeps us marching and makes us more alive than the others.”  – Martha Graham

I’ve said here, before, IF YOU HAVE A STORY IN YOUR HEART, TELL IT! When I was at the Festival last weekend someone told me they wanted to write, and then asked what made me go ahead and take MY LEAP OF FAITH, but before I answered she did… “BRAVERY, right?”. I guess that’s what it was, and reading Ms. Graham’s words made me realize that it’s OK, I know I have so much more to learn, to grow, but I will “keep the channel open”….

SWEET SURRENDER is a free download on Kindle, now through Sunday. If you’ve read it and liked it, let someone else know. If you are reading this and you haven’t read it – it’s FREE, give it a try, and then travel with me on my journey…

Blessed by all of you, Barbara



Another good week…

Covers in the thought process…

Books are moving (or so I hear! I CAN’T SEE anything!!!)  🙂

Editing coming along…..

And…….  I’ve been able to make $180 for The American Cancer Society through my local fundraising events! I would love for you to join the event and walk in HONOR or MEMORY of someone you know who has been touched by cancer, and if you aren’t local or are unable to join us on April 20th at the OakLeaf Soccer Field then consider helping me continue raising funds for The American Cancer Society by supporting my local event: http://main.acsevents.org/site/TR?fr_id=50019&pg=personal&px=30357968

I am a happy girl!

Today will be a sofa day – I may stay there all day! The OakLeaf Fall Festival was a great time, but the wind whipped us to death (thank you Sandy!) and I will nurse a raspy (not sore!) throat today to rest up for the week… plenty to do – editing, imagining and finding words… I love that!

Yesterday someone asked if, when I was writing Rock and Roll Never Forgets, I knew it would be a trilogy. I DID NOT, but the closer I got to the end of the story I knew there would be a book two, and as the thoughts for that one came to me, I knew there would be a third book to tie it all up.

I’ve probably said this before, but I’ve discovered that repeating myself is part of growing older, so… get over it! HA! I try to read and learn to help me be better at writing and I discovered that I am a “PANSTER” versus a “PLOTTER”. I “fly by the seat of my pants”, and so far the flight has been good!

I know there is much more to learn and improve on, but for now I am just glad that the next page isn’t known to me until the words appear on the page where I have either typed them, or scribbled them – I love the scribble pages and have a dozen composition books ready to be filled with ideas…. I PRAY IT NEVER STOPS…

I will check in again soon and remember CANCER is a battle we all fight, so find a Relay For Life event and helps us find a cure…

Love, Barbara

P.S – don’t forget, starting Nov 1 – 3rd the first book, Sweet Surrender, will be FREE on Kindle – pass the word! There’s a review on this site, check it out: http://indiepicks.wordpress.com/


Happy Dance!

Good morning my friends!
I’m happy to tell you that the (2nd) FREE DOWNLOAD WEEKEND for my first book, SWEET SURRENDER is going well! Just a little over halfway thru the promo and over 2700 downloads. It will go until midnight west coast time tonight.

AND…………. I just broke into the TOP 100 FREE DOWNLOADS!

I found a couple of ways to share it this time and after 10,000 downloads last time I’m excited to see this response!

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for sharing my link and passing the word! (did I say THANK YOU?!)

I can’t even put into words (well, I could… ha ha!) how excited I am right now! I did the FREE download again because we are soooooo close to Rock and Roll Never Forgets being a reality! It’s been a little over a year since I got EXCITED about it again and pulled it out of the closet…. (BOY AM I GLAD I DID!) It’s almost there, and I CAN’T BELIEVE IT!!


I did this weekend “gift” to get my name, as an author, out there again… I hope that everyone who reads/read Sweet Surrender will read Rock and Roll and say… WOW! SHE’S COME A LONG WAY! I think I have…

I really can’t thank you enough for BELIEVING IN ME….

Love, Barbara


Countdown to…..


Yesterday was a day of accomplishment!

The front cover has a few minor tweaks, but is basically complete and the more I look at it – the more I love it – it TRULY EMBODIES the journey of my story…

We took a few different paths on our way and each one got us closer, but yesterday got me THERE. I love it….. Gene does too, and I know this because the photo is lying on the dining room table and every time he walks by he stops, looks, and smiles…. THAT MAKES ME HAPPIER THAN I CAN EVEN EXPRESS! (And through this process I have a wonderful new friend…)

And now, I finally have a REAL vision of the back cover! It’s down to piecing it together for the final outcome. I CAN SEE IT… and it’s finally coming together. It’s coming to the 10… 9… 8… 7… stage!

I’ll keep you posted, but I’m pretty sure LIFTOFF will be in time for you to have a new book  READ over the Labor Day weekend….

I am so happy to share this experience with you…

Love, Barbara

PS – don’t forget, next weekend I am doing the FREE KINDLE DOWNLOAD on SWEET SURRENDER…



I know it’s not a real word – There’s a collection of “Barb-words” that I make up. I posted that one as a “Word of the Day” a week or so ago on my FaceBook.

It’s defined as: The pushing forward from something that’s held you back.

For the record – no one, or no thing holds me back but ME, MYSELF, AND I!

I have to stop those three bitz’s from getting in my way…


This has been on my mind so much, it seems I go three steps forward, and back-track two… I know WHY…  I think I’ve (HONESTLY) gotten past ‘I’M NOT GOOD ENOUGH…” but where I feel like I am is an anxious feeling. Let me es’plain…

I’ve said all along that Sweet Surrender wasn’t perfect (some of you have said the same thing, and it’s all good…).  It was a trial run – ‘throw it out and see what happens’, those were Gene’s words to me when I was looking into getting 5 printed copies that I earned for FREE from participating in NaNoWriMo. ‘If you print 5 you may as well print 100’. And what happened was good, but in the process I’VE LEARNED SOOO MUCH. And that’s the anxious feeling.

I know, because I am a READER, that the second book in my Rock and Roll Trilogy (When I Look to the Sky) is “gooder” than Rock and Roll (it’s better than SS too). So with every word I type – every sentence I form – every story that comes to my mind – I GROW… I wrote Rock and Roll Never Forgets a LONG TIME AGO (2003 when I started), and it has evolved from OK, to better, to “gooder”, to where I am now.

I’m gonna go through it one more time – that’s it – once more. Because it overwhelms me to think about changing it – I don’t want to for one thing, I LOVE THE STORY. And some who have read the whole thing tell me they love it, and some who have only read the ‘tease’ at the end of SS say they can’t wait to see what comes next. BUT I SEE THINGS THAT I NEED TO ‘FIX”, so I will read through and ‘upgrade’, I’m not gonna over-haul. And if y’all hate it – it’s a chance I’ll take (MY CLIFF!) I don’t love every book I’ve read, so I don’t expect that everyone will love what I write. Gene said follow my gut, and one of my encouragers says over and over – “LET THEM SEE YOU GROW… let them read the book, and then the next and see how much better they get.”

I’ve been asked where I think all of this is going – I honestly don’t know. I am NOT a planner – I am a FLY-BY-THE-SEAT-OF-MY-PANTSTER. I don’t know if someday I see the NY Times best seller list – hell, I didn’t expect the Amazon Top 100 Free for the two days Sweet Surrender was there, but it got there… ‘Que sera sera’… I have voices in my head, a story in my heart, and I’m just gonna take a chance… I’m gonna write a story that someone might like… and if they don’t… there you go!

I love all y’all for taking a chance on me, for sharing my dream, for traveling my journey… each of you is a blessing to me…

Love, Barbara



quiet… I’m working!
i just didn’t want those who check in to think I dropped off the earth. It’s a busy week – my co-worker/partner in crime at The Manor is on vacation and I’ve gone in early, and I’m whooooooped when I get in.
I come in and do the “drop and flop” and write some, edit some, and ponder and research some.

I’ve mentioned her here before and I am sure you will see her name again, but I have to tell a tale on my good friend, my ENCOURAGER, JMac…

I can always tell when the full-moon is approaching – it’s FRIDAY (FYI) – things get crazy… things get weird… things get emotional… things get…. well you know where I’m going here…

I get a txt yesterday from Jmac asking for directions on how I take my lil’mini vacations in the middle of the day…. part of it made me smile. but part of it made me sad because I couldn’t get her there…

My sanity breaks – my mini-vacations – are get-aways in my head where i drift away to my happy place… thinking about characters I’m traveling with right now and how to share their journey with you. Sometimes it’s a scrap of paper where I start with the ‘twenty things’ that I can think about to make their journey better, things that I can think about to make them more real and tell their story.

Find your mini-vacation and go there to FREE YOUR MIND… and the rest will follow… (I think there’s a song there…)

I want to share one thing that’s helping me be better – I have an iPhone and I’ve downloaded some free books that I’m reading, trying to learn from others, see how they do what they do, and if I read a paragraph I like, that takes me away, that gives me a clear vision, I take a screen shot and later I will take notes on what it was that made that stand out, sometimes it’s just a word…

I downloaded one that I want to share because it kept my heart racing the whole time I was reading… it’s a suspense with a love story…

ENEMIES and PLAYMATES ~ Darcia Hello


Give it a look – it’s still be a free download… (today)

OK – must get ready for work.
Have a beautiful day friends!
Love, Barbara

Free Your Mind y’all…


Happy St. Patty’s Day!

Most of my friends know this, but I am throwing it out for more exposure…

I am a newly published author and like me, the book has flaws, but I would like for you to read THE STORY and give me an HONEST review…. To celebrate St. Patty’s day the Kindle download is FREE from 12:00AM tonight 3/16 – 11:59PM on 3/17.
Enjoy the journey…


Fri AM addendum:

The Kindle special above is already helping get the book (and me) out there. I’ve posted the info several places. There are already 16 books downloaded and it only started at 3AM EST (midnight PST) already. Hoping this will get some reviews on the Amazon site so that people see them, and as I understand it, if they downloaded it, WHEN the next book comes out they will get or see something that they have ‘purchased’ one of my books in the past. Crossing fingers – it’s already an AMAZING JOURNEY! Maybe this takes me to the next step (which is only the 2nd one in the stairway to my ‘writer’s heaven ha!)

Thanks to all of you for your support and love, Barbara

PS – there is a new comment on the WHAT I’M HEARING PAGE – check it out!


Well, maybe I should have only done 1 day!!! 102 downloads already… But that means 102 more people will hopefully read it!!!!!